Not the best day. So, I just called, for a second time, Dr K's office for results of the Biopsy.
Sandy, very kind, said no results yet. So she called again for me, and confirmed that they are not ready yet.Hearing my fear, after I started to get shaky, and after I asked if it was significant that they had no results yet, i.e. did this mean they couldn't determine whether it was cancer or not, she said, not to worry, that it is "normal" because they are so busy. So, we said our good byes, and I am back to stoic-mode again. She was very nice. I also had a huge fight with Gordy. I sent him an email trying to let him know what it felt like here on this side of the breast et al...I hope he "hears" it and empathizes so he can appreciate my needs and neediness. My toes and fingers are crossed -- he HAS to get a clue, else this is not working, and I am truly alone, and this is so beyond me. If he can't "get it" at least I can now realign my "dependency" and act like a solo independent woman again...it will just take a bit of a shift. As always, I'll find a way to "gird my loins" and will take another step forward...but it would be nice to have someone walking this path with me, holding my hand?!? ...
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