| What is it about me...easy is not my life-path. I just phoned the oncologist's office to see if they have results yet today.
I spoke to Karen and so far, no -- apparently, it's inconclusive!!! The guy looking seems to think not so much cancer, but there are 5 slides he's looking at, and is going to consult with another MD -- and "my" oncologist is apparently away from the office for personal reasons and wont be back until tuesday -- or wednesday the soonest. Karen said she'll try to get something for me tonight before she leaves. But, if inconclusive, it means going back for MORE!!! I'm depressed about it. Waite originally wanted me to have it all removed, as did the Island Surgeon, so there would be no question, so, I guess it would have been the right decision, since the core samples are apparently not conclusive. I'm so exhausted, and to be in limbo yet again --?
And to probably have to go for more surgery -- ?
Shit!
## [I'm not sure I can get more blue and keep the chins up much longer -- hurry up and nevermind is not an easy way -- and all this stress since 4/15 -- a very long time to endure the unknown, while being the "best patient" I could be...informed, present, et al.]
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