| I don't think that I mentioned that I have spoken to Mom almost daily since I've been home. It's just a short short call, I tell her I love and miss her. She cries a bit, and then I tell here I'll be coming this weekend with food!!! and that perks her up a bit. For that reason alone, I have to slow down, and do the right thing, even slower than ok, so I can visit Mom and let her know she's not alone and left unloved or uncared for and not thought of. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I just had an argument with Gordy. He has agreed to take over some phone calls [did you know I'm phone phobic? Yeah, I am. I could do cold calls face to face in a heart beat when I was selling Kroy Lettering Machines, but to phone someone..ugh...panic set in. I can sit in front of a phone, when it comes to business, and stare and try to gird my loins, and grit my teeth, to get the nerve to dial. When it starts to ring, my heart races and I get shakey. Oh, how I hate phone calls--there is not "tell" without the visual] and act as liason between me and WSH and HomePlace and Consonus for a bit. I get way too emotional, and, I also know that I'm not "heard". Gordy is heard. And he can persuade people easily if he chooses. He has a lovely sounding voice to boot. But, back to the argument. I just wanted him to ask Annette if we can bring a blanket or the other twin spread up to Mom, since she said that all the stuff is in boxes still, since the move upstairs to E-8. He says it will just "grow legs", or the "personal shoppers" [that is a HomePlace term for someone grabs it and takes it from her room] will remove it etc. I just want Mom to have a "pretty" when she wakes up in the AM. I also want to push the issue, to see if it is truly "in boxes" as Annette indicates, or if she is using this to keep us from not bringing it. Some times, as based on my experience to date, they people who care for my Mother don't state outright what their problem is with something. They use excuses etc. to appease me, and still have it the way they want it. Tell me straight! That's all I ask. The first manager I spoke to told me to bring things. She encouraged it. If that conversation didn't happen, I wouldn't have any expectations or ideas of doing this in my head. But they said, posters for the wall, pillows, non-breakable things are goodness. So, that is where this need to bring things in comes from. Another reason I want to bring some Gerry things in, is because I was just in hospital for a week, and to be so nameless, so identity bereft, it was awful, and it was on such a small scale. And the bed is terrible to sleep on, and the pillows, even Gordy couldn't use them. Nasty slippery, pieces of work. So, I want to bring a bit of outside inside, especially now that we know of some of the possible time it will take to get Mom released. Damnitall.
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