| Seeing Mom on Thursday was a homecoming from my POV...I missed her so much that it was palpable! When we entered, we were greeted by a grumpy care-giver, not the typical smiling faces we were used to, but as we walked in, we were greeted by the "usual suspects", smiles intact, and with a happy sigh, as apparently, Mom was not happy and was letting everyone know it by trying to take over the place . When I walked around the corner, I saw her down the hall, and so I opened my arms, overhead and wide, then in a loud voice called, "Mom! MmmmmOOOooooMMMmm!" until she looked up, she didn't "know me" at first, but as she came closer, and I walked towards her, she started to turn the stern look into a more relaxed look, and with my hugging her, a smile. It took a few more moments of my exclaiming how excited I was to see her and tell her who I was, "Your daughter, Jonni" etc. "I missed you so much, it's so good to see you" until she relaxed in full as she "got it". Later in "the room" she knew it was me and even called me by my name! That is rare rare rare, but oh, I needed that. When she saw Gordy, she did a recognition grin, and spent a lot of time teasing him, and saying how much she liked him, and how well he looked, she was glad to see him, big time. For me, she gave me a lot of "you look good" which could've been her "default /generic" mode of "making nice", but no, she was more than that with me, she knew me, and was loving me in the way she knows how and is able. She had been wrestling with a cold for over a week, so it was lingering some; her cough, but she settled in the chair easily, owning it, laid back and was chatting in a relaxed mode. She caught me off guard when I asked about Jim, her knee-jerk reply was "no she hadn't spoke to him" but then, she thought, and grabbed a memory and said, "hm, I think maybe I did.." so that was very interesting regarding memory. She wasn't posturing, she actually changed her mind and dug up a memory. It was very exciting to see that capability. God I love her. I also had an idea that I should have figured out earlier if brain was working, but at least I got it this time. Mom has never liked to eat out because she's a slow eater, and doesn't like to be eating solo, so next time we'll bring 2 more plates and forks to join in with her, nibbling while, we hope, she eats. Why it never came to my mind before boggles. I love and miss her........
Gordy snuck some more snaps of her, seeing her in a snap is quite a shocker--no twinkling of the bably blues make it to the photo, but I know I'll want 'em later, or at least the option of being able to see her in snaps documenting this time in our lives.
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