| Crap! The "universe" sure has a sick sense of humor. But for Jim, my brother, not being allowed to speak to Mom today because WSH E-8 ward told him he wasn't on the list [this after over a year of his and Mary's phoning them almost every weekend...;p~~~~~~], and Jim then phoning Gordy and leaving a message of frustration on his voice-mail [apparently he added Joan and SuSu has been trying and not being allowed either, but I hadn't heard this from them earlier] I would not have phoned WSH scant hours ago. By phoning, I heard that not only did they not have the record, but it was prolly lost through the fact that Mom now has 2 charts, and it is with the other one. They added the names for me on the front of the chart, and I faxed a note over to them. BUT, here's where I get shaken up to the core. Apparently they put Mom on IV for fluids and whatever for a few days already, and they never phoned me!!! That is so atypical of them as they usually are so careful to keep me involved. Mom is literally not eating or drinking anything. And she has a UTI which is not good; I can't imagine her system being able to fight it with no "fuel". I am scared to my core. I can not stop shaking, literally. Gordy cancelled his appointment with his customer tomorrow, and we will be heading down to see Mom. I want to go now, but with the weekend staff on, I won't get much help, and Mom will prolly be dozing. They prolly can't even reach the MD to talk to me later on if they tried. During the day tomorrow, if it seems necessary, I'm sure someone is on call for the ward, and Mom specifically. SHITSHITSHITSHITSHIT!!! I can't lose her. I need her. I need her to feel well. I love her so damn much. Pray for her to be ok. I want her to have no pain or discomfort. But I hope it gets resolved by her regaining her appetite for food and life. I love her so much. She is brightness and joy. This is so scary. I phoned Marilyn, but didn't put an "urgent" on it, 'cuz I'll be there tomorrow, not home...so the "universe" will have to intercede for me here if I'm to speak to her. Let's hope it is a gentler method than earlier today, with my Brother being frustrated and upset about reaching Mom.
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